Coming around.

Today Margot received the news that her dad has pretty progressed cancer and it's spread into his lymph nodes and other parts of his body. I'm incredibly sad because God knows we don't have a whole lot of family to begin with. Especially since my family is non-existent.

Plus, I really wish he knew Graem and Margot better. We talked in the car tonight about Margot opening up to him in the near future and just laying it out there for him. I think she needs to know that she's done everything in her power to establish a relationship with her father and it needs to be his decision if he wants to accept that and "come around."

I am quite concerned about the whole financial aspect of all of this. Margot's dad isn't a citizen and he's put every dime he has into this house. With him out of work I have no idea how he's going to pay for the house, utilities, and day to day bills. Not to mention, it's not like he's going to get "better." He's just going to continue to get worse and eventually need care.

Since, he's not a citizen he isn't eligible for Medicaid, Medicare, or even Social Security. So basically people that don't have money would lean on any one of these services for care. He has nothing.

I know when/if the time comes he'd be more than welcome to come stay with us and I'd take care of him when Margot works. I can't imagine how sad and emotional the next few months are going to be.

Then there's the whole...trying to have a baby thing. This whole thing with her dad makes my struggles with infertility seem so trivial. It really makes me appreciate what I have today because I realize that it could be gone tomorrow.

I'm so thankful that I have a healthy daughter and partner.