Sunday, September 30, 2007

More space.

Our basement is become a major craphole. I've decided that we need to get closet cabinet in order to organize things down there.

We have tools on the floor, baby stuff everywhere, and even a few mice that hang out and eat the cat food.

I figure if we're able to clean up a bit and get things off the ground maybe the mice won't have a place to hang out! offers some great cabinets at really great prices. Plus, their selection is awesome.

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I must admit...

that I'm really scared about this pregnancy. I'm scared that at some point I'm going to get a cramp and it's going to all be over.

This time 5 weeks 6 days was when I first started having cramps and bleeding. Of course, I know I shouldn't compare...but I do anyway.

Since I changed to the Provera I haven't had one drop of blood or any spotting. I really think that the expired Progesterone was irritating my cervix and causing a little bit of spotting. Or I have even read that when it sits around that it turns a pale brown or grey color.

Either way...I know I should just sit back and enjoy.

I just need to see a heartbeat and a healthy baby in the next few ultrasounds...then I can take a breath and actually enjoy being pregnant.

My little princess!

A few months ago I took some great pictures of Grammy dressed up in costume jewelry that I purchased at Target.

Of course, it had Barbie and other princesses on it! She absolutely loved the set and of course, I also had to try on the flashing earrings and necklace too!

You're never too old to dress up like a princess, right?

Of course, Grammy had to run for the camera and get a shot of Mama dressed up in kids princess jewelry!

Kind of bummed...

Our best friends, L&L, are looking for a new house and I must admit that I'm pretty bummed that they won't be right down the street. Proximity has allowed us to have dinner in the middle of the week and hang out on most weekends.

Right now they're getting a taste of the real estate market. Fortunate, for us --- it looks horrible in our area! Which of course, means that they aren't moving any time soon.

However, I do hope at some point they find the perfect house and can feel good about their new purchase.

On the go?

I remember when I worked with seniors...I'd try to take them out as much as possible. Sometimes it could take us an hour to load up the bus just to go on a 30 minute drive around town!

Of course, we had some people on oxygen and I was always scared that their oxygen tanks would run out on me!

Now they have these great portable oxygen concentrator units that are easy to use and light enough to be portable!

This would make traveling a lot easier. Not to mention, it's probably more reliable than the tanks!

Friday, September 28, 2007

Get the grade?

We have thought about moving for the past few years. With a new baby on the way it's pretty evident that the move will happen sooner than later because we really need more space.

Of course when looking for a new home we really want to make sure to find a good inspector. Home inspectors have to pass a home inspection exam in order to become licensed. offers a great guide so that you are able to pass the tests with flying colors. The prep software is easy to use and is sure to make the difference.

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So exhausted.

Today I was so tired I could barely stay awake while subbing. The kids were pretty darn bad and I'm so glad that I'm home, sitting on the couch, and ready to hop in the tub.

Of course, this weekend all I want to do is just hang out with the fam and catch up on good television.

Oh yeah...we have to clean the house too!

Free Raleigh, NC Getaway’

A few years ago we went to Margot's Uncle and Aunt's in Raleigh, North Caroline. We had such a great time not only being with family but also it was fun to be in a different place and the south at that!

Now there's a website offering a Free Raleigh Getaway! You bet I've already signed up because I would love to go back to Raleigh. There was so much to do. The food was amazing and the shopping was great too!

Here's what is included in the free getaway:
-One night accommodations for two at the Courtyard by Marriott Raleigh Crabtree Valley
-$25 gift certificate to Bloomsbury Bistro
-Free VIP admission for two to Rum Runners
-2 tickets to the North Carolina Theatre
-2 tickets to the N.C. Museum of Art’s Landscapes from the Age of Impressionism
-2 tickets to Dinosaurs: Ancient Fossils, New Discoveries at the N.C. Museum of Natural Sciences

Grammy would absolutely love the Dinosaurs exhibits at the Museum of Natural Sciences!

Of course, since we're typically broke I'm sure we'd have to win the getaway in order to travel!

Heck, I hope we win soon because with a new baby around I can't imagine us going very far in the next few years.

If you're looking for a fall getaway look no further!

Of course, I've always loved music and I'd be a fan of the N.C. Symphony's Classical Series: Branford Marsalis Quartet. If you've never heard a southern quartet -- boy, are you missing out!

Thursday, September 27, 2007

3rd beta and 4 weeks 2 days pregnant!

Well, this morning we ended up taking Margot to work, going grocery shopping and going to the lab to get my blood drawn. The lady liked to dig the hell out of my arm trying to get a vein. I had to tell her to stop and move on!

I got the news from the fertility center and beta had gone up to 97! I'm really happy about that and it's going up just like it should.

Here's the story:

10dp3dt - 21
11dp3dt - 38
13dp3dt - 97

WOO WOO. Of course, now I just have to wait til my October 10th ultrasound to see a heartbeat and I'll feel much better about the whole thing.

As far as symptoms go....I'm exhausted. That's it. Last night I was in bed by 9:00 and my eyes constantly feel sleepy.

I really should start taking a nap with Grammy. However, she always wants to sleep on the couch and there's not enough room for my big ass too.

Wednesday, September 26, 2007

Is this creepy?

They're getting darker!

For those of you that understand and appreciate...I'd love to show you my piss drenched pee sticks from the past few days!!

It's nice to see those lines getting darker!

This picture is the difference between Sunday's pee stick and this morning's pee stick!

Another look at today's glowing stick!!

Jingle Bells!

Christmas is right around the corner. I've done a great job at shopping for all of the kids. Of course, I haven't picked a thing out for our friends or even for Margot.

I figure when it gets closer to the date I'll have a christmas gift idea!

Until then I'll just keep trying to hit up Target's on Friday mornings to find good clearance toys!

It seems like Graem has really been loving all of the games that we purchased for her and every night we play a family game of "Go fish".

Maybe I'll buy us some more "family games" so that we can enjoy each other's company.

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

Which one could it be?

Well, I went back for a repeat beta and overnight the number went from 21 to 38 today! WOO WOO!

I'm so psyched! Of course, now I'm wondering which one of the seven dwarves decided to hang on for dear life!

Last night I actually had a case of nausea and also I was so exhausted. By trip number five to the bathroom I had to grab half a banana in order to settle my sickness.

Won't hear me complaining though.


I'm not talking about just any ED. I'm talking about Erectile Dysfunction. Many men suffer from not being able to get it up when the time "arises". (No pun intended.)

We have a friend who is all about talking about his Erectile Dysfunction. At one point he even showed us his pump. It was disturbing.

Now there's a place where men can go and find answers to their questions about ED. The website is geared at directing men to the resources that will be helpful to them along their journeys.

They offer suggestions on pharmacies and even medication advise for men with ED.

This might be good news for my 65 year old friend, Ray Baker and his pump!

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Sunday, September 23, 2007

Today I'm pregnant.

Well, yesterday I took a test and after 45 minutes I had the faintest faintest line. You could barely even see it. So I obsessed about it til about 12:30 last night.

Then at 3:00am I woke up and peed on another stick. I counted it out on the clock upstairs and waited 10 minutes. The damn test was white as snow. I went back to sleep.

When I woke up at 9:30 I dug the damn thing out of the trash and low and behold...another evaporation line. This one was darker (see picture above).

When we went to pick up some groceries I sneaked to the cashier and purchased some First Response tests. After we got home from apple picking I peed on one and within 180 seconds - TWO LINES!

I would have sworn this whole thing was a bust. Just hours before I found out I was pregnant I wrote a post about how this cycle was negative and I had lost hope.

I've been having some cramping that feels exactly like my period is around the corner. Plus, I've been having some ovary pain too. Other than sign that this worked!

So for the time being...I'm pregnant.

You're getting a Dell?

We've had Dell laptops and computers for the past five years or so. We've really tried every brand including Gateway and Compaq and found that Dell offers the best product, price and customer service.

Years ago we started out with a desktop. You never realize how much you love your laptop until you get one!

When we got a laptop when the baby was born we had so much freedom plus it was nice to travel and also to be able to go to the local coffee house and work!

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Busted bubble.

Yesterday afternoon I peed on a stick. I went upstairs and 30 minutes later I came back down. It appeared to actually have a line on it.

Of course, you had to put it at an angle and it was hardly there. But a line, nonethless.

So of course, I had a glimmer of hope.

This morning I ended up peeing on a stick and I actually checked the timelimit and after 10 minutes the test is invalid and your answer doesn't matter.

So even though there looks to be another very very very light line....I'm out of the timelimit and presumeably not pregnant.

Gotta love finding out that your cycle is a bust from a dollar store pregnancy test.

Friday, September 21, 2007

New computer?

We have two computers in the house. However, we still tend to fight over the laptop. Margot has all of the finances on it and it's nice to be able to compute and also sit in front of the television!

At some point I hope we can find cheap laptops so that we can get another one.

We were also talking about how we should start looking for a used or refurbished computer for Graem to use. She already knows how to use our computer and she's pretty darn good at it!

Maybe if we can get our hands on a cheap computer that can be one of her Christmas gifts!

Of course, I'm being selfish and one reason why I want to get her the computer is so she doesn't hog ours as much with videos and!

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Fuck. 7dp3dt.

Well, I think it's over. I know for all of you IVF professionals that say hang in there. But I've been through this way to long to know that it's all over. I'm having period cramping and of course I took a HPT today.


My cramps started hurting this afternoon and I just knew it was over.

I've felt the past few days like something was actually going on and that I was pregnant. I was almost sure that this was the cycle.

I feel like my body is just killing everything that dare enters.

I'm upset and bitter at this whole process. I got the book "The Infertility Cure" and plan on reading it over the weekend and maybe even starting the diet listed inside.

Of course, all deals are off when we go to San Francisco.

Thursday, September 20, 2007

Chairs and stools!

When we get a bigger house I'd like to have a breakfast bar. Of course I'd need to fully equip it with a good set of modern bar stools. offers a great website that's easy to use and has some of the most hip and great looking furniture available. Not to mention, the prices are pretty hot too.

Take a look at the following: Leather club chairs, brown leather chairs, and recliner leather chairs.

Of course, we just need a house big enough to accomodate more furniture!

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Either's over.

At least for a while.

I figure Tuesday is going to be healthy for me. Whether I find out I'm pregnant and can move out of this infertile slump that I've been in for what seems like forever.

Even if I'm not pregnant I'm pretty excited about getting away from all of this and just taking a much needed break to free my mind, get drunk a few times, and forget about project baby.

It's all gone on for way too long and I'm tired of the ups and downs. (Mostly downs). I don't even want to think about the next step if this doesn't work.

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I'm not a big MySpacer...but if I were I'd want to hook up my profile with MySpace quizzes!

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Pulling, tugging, twinges, cramping, sickness, fatigue...all of the symptoms that I've been having. I actually went ahead and tested today and absolutely nothing. No two lines. I was sure that it would be a positive.

I guess I'm just going to wait it out. I don't have any more pregnancy tests and I'm not sure I want to take any more anyway.

I'm exhausted.

Monday, September 17, 2007

My poor old skin.

What can I say...I was raised in Houston, Texas with parents that were not educated about the dangers of direct sunlight to skin!

When I was a kid I remember spending all day at the neighborhood swimming pool only to come home looking like a lobster. I thought it was the coolest thing to wake up the next day and pop the "sun blisters" that were obviously caused by a 2nd degree burn!

Now I'm a bit more aware of the dangers and I make sure to put sunscreen on my child every time we leave the house. Even if it's only sunny for a few minutes I know that her skin can burn easily and I want to make sure she's protected.

Since my skin is already damaged and I'm getting older I know how important it is to consider using R.G. Skin Revitalizer. I have a really weird skin type. It's dry in the morning and as the day progresses it becomes oily.

R.G. Skin has designed a product with all different kinds of skin types in mind. In fact, their product is sold directly on their website and you can read all about it.

Maybe there is hope for me yet?

Who knows...maybe I can even stop going to the Dermotologist annually!

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I called the fertility center and since my progesterone level was over 40 they said that I don't have to go in today to get bloodwork. YAH!

Of course, I was curious to see if it's spiked. I think sometimes that can be an indicator to see if something is trying to implant.

So, I've been having some major twinges, cramping, and pulling in my uterus. My ovaries do seem a bit sore and I can't tell if the swelling is going up or down.

I had the biggest poop of my life yesterday and today I've had two good ones. Thank you, Colace!

I'm doing pretty good on bedrest and our friend, Jen, is going to be here in a few minutes to help with Grammy.

Margot has meetings this evening so Jen's going to stay til she gets home.

Just a few weeks away?

I can't believe that San Francisco is just a few weeks away! It's really crept up on us and it's just around the corner. I think the whole infertility and IVF cycle have taken up most of our time.

I want to get a nice Samsonite piece of luggage for the trip. I saw one at the store the other day and it was really marked at a good price. I should have just bit the bullet and got it.

However, $100 is $100 and it's hard to justify luggage which we only use once every few months!

Get away.

We've been trying to go on "date night" at least once a week. We figure we really need to spend time with no kid and "keep it real."

Of course, we did it for one week and that's been that.

I think we should probably try to work on taking off a weekend to Mendocino lodging! Margot loves being outdoors with wilderness and I love the luxuries of the I think this might be the perfect compromise.

Of course, I just have to pray that they have internet, phone lines, and television.

Then again, maybe we should just stay at home.

My dream..

set of golf clubs has always been Ping Golf clubs.

Of course, I don't golf enough to justify the amount of money that I would spend on a nice pair of clubs. Plus, if Margot sees this post she might shoot me since I got a new pair a few years ago and have only used them a few times!

I wish I had more time and money for golf because it's such a nice game. Plus, I really love driving the golf cart around.

Too bad, I have to lose a case of balls for each game I play. I guess I really "leave my mark" on the game.

Sunday, September 16, 2007

I need to stop looking on the computer...

cause it's just downright bad for me. I swear I've been on here since 10am this morning and it's nearly 4. I've read about all of the symptoms and how people that had cramps like me were both pregnant and not pregnant.

I think I might pee on a stick Sunday, too.

That'd be good if I can wait til then!

Dance the night away!

I am constantly impressed at how much Margot's aunt and uncle dance. They are very involved in the community and even have a private dance instructor and a dance studio above their garage.

In fact, they'd love to have bachata videos! Maybe we'll have to start looking into purchasing them as Christmas gifts! is a great website that talks about Bachata dancing and also gives you information on how to purchase their great videos!

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Well, here I am with my fat ass glued to the couch. Yesterday I had some twinges and cramping. I would put my hand on the area and instantly things would calm down.

Today I feel a bit twingy but it's also feeling like that right ovary is going a little crazy.

I'm going to do the bedrest thing til Tuesday and then it's life as usual without doing the lifting or anything overly active.

I've looked at every single website with the words 2dp3dt and it looks like I'm right on course.

Of course, the next few days are actually when the embryos would start implanting.

The seven dwarfs.

Well, we thought we were only going to have five embryos and that's if all of them made it.

Thursday I got a call that we might have a few more that caught up.

Low and behold I go in Friday for the transfer and the doctor walks in and says "Seven perfect embryos."

I got pictures of the gang and they all do look pretty damn good. So we transferred them all back in.

Of course, I've been on bedrest and doing pretty good despite the fact that I'm bored silly and obsessing about every twinge and cramp.

Thursday, September 13, 2007


In just a few months (December) Grammy will be celebrating her third birthday. Last year's birthday was a doozie since I had the miscarriage the morning of her birthday party.

This year I want to make up for it and have an extra special birthday. I should probably start looking for birthday invitations now and get the ones that she likes before it gets too close to the date.

More than likely we'll invite a few of her friends from school and L&L. This might be the first birthday that we actually have school friends at her party!

Our girl is getting so big.

Dirty people.

Before we had a kid we used to be so much cleanier! At one point we had candles on the table and even a tablecloth!

Now of course, the candles would fall down and break and the tablecloth would be dirty first meal of the day.

I think we've just tried to make life a little simplier. I mean having a kid changes everything -- for the better of course. But you realize that you do give up some of the nicer things in order to stay sane!

Too girly?

I've always been one to appreciate jewelry. I used to wear our commitment bands, earrings, and a necklace.

Now, I've pretty much downgraded and don't wear anything! The rings we purchased 9 years ago are now falling off of our fingers since we've lost so much weight. Plus, the earrings hurt my ears when I put them on!

If I wear jewelry it's my Skagen watch that Margot got me one year for Valentine's Day!

Wednesday, September 12, 2007

The good news...

is that if this infertility treatment doesn't work then I'm going to start dieting again and I hope to lose the 25 pounds or so that I have gained from all of these treatments.

I already have a plan of attack including a gym membership that I've had for two months and only gone once and my good ole' fat pills.

I just came across the Cheat to Lose Diet too that I'm taking under consideration!

The whole idea is to kick-start your metabolism. The whole idea is that you follow their diets and within weeks the pounds stop dropping.

I like the fact that it's precise and guides you a long the way so that you can have a "lifestyle change".

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Well, I'm pretty upset at this mornings report. Out of 21 eggs only 5 fertilized.

That's absolutely horrible.

I also found out that our sperm vial only had 9 million motile sperm and it was guaranteed to have 10 million.

It's been a pretty shitty day to say the least and I feel absolutely crushed and defeated in ever sense of the word.

Tuesday, September 11, 2007

Twenty one big ones!

Well, I posted on the main board but thought that I'd get more specific here. We went in for egg retrieval this morning and I was a bit nervous because we were the second group to go and they started 30 minutes late!

Of course, every minute I'm getting nervous that I ovulate.

Finally, anethesiologist walks in and starts up the meds. For some reason as the nurse is getting my downstairs ready for the operation I start talking about shaving?!?!

For lack of a better explaination -- I've decided not to shave this cycle. I figure every other cycle I've shaved legs, armpits, and downstairs and I'm going commando this time. Maybe those embryos are geting cold without hair...who knows.

I think not taking this cycle so literally has really helped. Icecream, coffee, and overeating has also helped.

Tonight I'm going to eat a meal high in carbs and for snack today I had half a jar of peanut butter - straight up.

I took a two hour nap and I'm still feeling pretty crappy. My tummy feels pretty yucky and let me tell you....I feel like I've overeaten and need to throw up.


Sunday, September 09, 2007

Trigger in a few minutes.

Well, I almost can't believe that it's that time of the cycle again and I'll be doing my shot of HCG. HCG is given in the belly using a relatively small needle. You take it 36 hours prior to the egg retrieval.

It sends the eggs down and causes you to ovulate. Of course, the whole idea is that the the doctor will go in right at 36 hours past the shot and get the eggs out before you ovulate them.

Today I've had a small headache, pretty bloated and still really tired.

I know I'm probably going to feel like doo doo over the next few days so we were able to get the house really clean so that I can just kick back and relax.

Of course, I have about 10 loads of laundry that I still have to take care of. It's been a battle because I'm not suppose to lift anything heavy. So I do the laundry and Margot transfers it up and down the stairs.

I'm a liberal.

That's a given. I don't understand how there can really be gay republicans out there. That's just an oxymoron!

Lately, I've been pretty interested in politics. With the elections coming up I really hope and pray that a democrat gets elected to office!

I've found a pretty good political forum that is unmoderated and has some great ongoing debates. offers an easy to use website where you can see others views and display your own.

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Friday, September 07, 2007

I feel yuck.

I have been feeling pretty shitty and my e2 has been rising slowly, but steadily. My e2 results today were 1193. That's up 393 from yesterday.

I get home and I'm so damn exhausted I can barely stay awake and when 10:00pm comes around I feel like I'm going to just pass right out.

This weekend I have a feeling we're probably not going to do much of anything. I go in tomorrow for my last u/s and b/w.

Then it looks like I'm going to trigger Sunday night and have a Tuesday retrieval.

Here's my updated IVF chart:

Date Day E2
12/08/03 5 100
12/10/03 7 133
12/12/03 9 336

10/27/06 5 358
10/30/06 8 1966
10/31/06 9 2905

11/25/06 5 481
11/27/06 7 1518

02/14/07 5 443
02/16/07 7 868
02/19/07 10 3965

07/09/07 5 152
07/11/07 7 650
07/12/07 8 1036
07/13/07 9 1400
07/14/07 10 2575

09/04/07 5 418
09/06/07 7 800
09/07/07 8 1193

I feel yuck.

Thursday, September 06, 2007

We've got a smart one...

on our hands! Let me just start by saying that I think we have to constantly challenge our children.

We recently applied to put Grammy in Montessori but since there's a two year wait list more than likely she'll enter Kindergarten before she gets accepted!

I think at some point we should probably look into getting her Math Tutors to help her stay ahead in class.

Score Learning Centers offer educational support for kids aged 4-14! Now I just have to find where the closest center is located!

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Poor Grammy.

Today I took G to the dentist to have her cavity taken care of. The dentist was this really nice old man who walked in and gave me a big hug. He couldn't hear a thing and after looking in Grammy's mouth determined that she had two cavities.

He then showed me how he wanted to put this gold tooth wrap around thing around her tooth. I just about fainted and could jsut think that my kid isn't going to have silver teeth. I begged him to see if there's anything he could do.

He gave her laughing gas and then injected the lidocaine with the needle. After scraping for some time he showed me the hole that the cavity made.

HOLY SHIT! It was deep and almost down to the gumline. Of course, I felt like a horrible parent and I should have insisted more often and for longer that Grammy brush her teeth.

He ended up filling the two cavities with the porcelin filling so you can't see it. But we are due back in six months for cleanings.

When we got home G was so tired and she was crying because her mouth hurt. I felt so sorry for her that it was traumatic and hope that she lets us take better care of her teeth.

Tom Landry!

Growing up in Texas football is pretty much life. I learned at a very young age after my father dressed me in red and blue and painted my face that The Houston Oilers are the best.

However, my uncle always disagreed and every Thanksgiving they would get into it on who was going to win the superbowl.

Of course, both teams were pretty bad and neither one would ever make it to the Super Bowl after years of bickering!

I'm sure my uncle who now lives in Dallas probably still subscribes to Dallas Cowboys tickets. He's a big shot at GM and probably has some great seats.

However, if we ever visit him and we need to get some good seats we'll probably end up going through The website is easy to use and they have some really great seats at reasonable prices.


What a great idea!

When I was in high school I really didn't have any idea what college I would go to. I knew of all of the schools in Texas but hadn't heard of any of the ones outside of my area.

I remember my friend Shannon went with her parents cross country and they visited all of the great schools. Of course, she picked up shirts from each. I had never heard of Cornell, Bryn Mawr, or Wellsley!

I think most kids probably learn about these schools from their guidance counselors or perhaps their parents or friends were alumnis.

One thing that would have helped me to see what was out there would have been to go with other people and made a trip to the different colleges. It would have been nice to go on a tour of the schools and really get a feel for the spirit of the university or college.

The reality is that the first time I went to my college was during orientation and I had no idea what it would be like because I don't even remember visiting before enrolling! Now, that's pretty sad.

CE Tours offers a great service to students and parents. They specialize in making sure that kids know their college and university options. They offer tours of universities and colleges and really make sure that you get a first rate experience while checking different places out.

Had I known about CE Tours I would have probably been one of the first people to enroll! God knows that my parents were always too busy to take me to different colleges. Plus, I'm not sure that they knew of the many different options that might have been a better fit for me.

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Today's appointment - 6 days of stims.

So I've felt pretty nauseaus lately and last night I thought I was going to barf as I was lying in bed. Of course, I'm extremely sleep deprived since Graem slept in her bed last night none of us slept all that great!

Plus, this morning I had to wake up at 5:30 in the morning to make my 7:30 appointment.

Ovaries look good and I think my biggest follicle is at 16 and the others aren't too far behind it.

I still have to be on stims for three more days though so tonight I was told to keep my meds the same. My e2 went from 418 to 800 today.

I go back in tomorrow upon my request and they are going to do another ultrasound and bloodwork.

The fun never stops!

Get me out of here!

Of course I'm not saying those words quite yet because winter isn't here but I know it's just a matter of days before the trees start changing colors and we see our first snow flake!

That's why I'm already thinking ahead to our upcoming vacation! We've talked about going to Orlando when Graem was bigger but I think she might actually enjoy it now! She's just started to get into the Disney characters and we actually have a lot of the DVDs!

At some point I should start looking for discounts on Disney World Tickets. I know they cost an arm and a leg and if we can go to Disney when kids are still in school then it might not be as crowded and we can have the whole park to ourselves.

Of course, offers a great website and will help us out in setting up entertainment when we're in Orlando!

Wednesday, September 05, 2007

Need a pick me up?

I'm constantly looking for ways to help me think positively. These past few months have been really hard and each day I feel gets harder than the next.

That's why I was happy to run into the uplifting and inspirational writings of Karl's blog.

Karl Moore offers some great insight and really helps readers see things a little bit differently than they might have before reading his site.

In fact, he gives meaning to "the grass isn't always greener on the other side".

With so much hatred and bad press out there it's easy to chalk up all websites and television to being a negative source of energy. But I'm glad that Karl Moore was able to bring enjoyment and leisure back into blogging.

Job well done, Karl!

Monday, September 03, 2007

3 days of stims.

Well, this morning I woke up and felt pretty full of follicles. I called into the RE's office and got my favorite LPN. She called the head RN and I was told to reduce meds to 225 Gonal-F and 75 Repronex. She also made the comment that the doctor might have started me too high and I might need to coast.


Of course, that's not quite the news I wanted to hear.

I have a feeling that tomorrow's ultrasound and bloodwork will be very telling and probably give me a clue as to where we go next.

Of course, there's nothing really I can do except hope that all of this works. Just like the other 13 times.

Saturday, September 01, 2007

First night of stims down!

Well, I was shocked to feel that after one night of stims I was already feeling some major activity with my ovaries!

Most of the time I don't start feeling activity til day four or five of stims. I'm wondering if maybe I'm noticing it more or even the 75ius extra of meds are making a difference.

Again, as I've mentioned before...this cycle it's different. Not feeling much of anything emotionally.