So fun!

Last night we had such a great time with Jen. We ate tons of food and could barely move. Then right before she left I remember that we had American Idol Karaoke Revolution.

Jen and me are absolute stars when it comes to karaoke and that being said...we were out of control. Actions included bad singing, teddy bears, and even some dancing.

I'll have to dig up the video and post it online.

Until then, take it from me. We were cwazy!

Good thing the party was over by 9:00pm.

Can - Coon!

I absolutely can't wait for our vacation May 11th - 17th. We're staying at a 4 1/2 star all inclusive hotel. Of course, I can't wait to eat the yummy food and drink the premium alcohol that's included in our package!

I shopped around for days for the best deal and although we got a good deal online --- I looked online and was able to find even a better deal. Darn!

I guess that's just how it goes and you take that chance with any travel that you do.

I looked for Hotel Reservations on about 10 different websites along with airline, and rental car reservations. HotelReservations.com offered some great deals on hotels and was pretty easy to navigate.

I actually ended up going through Orbitz because they offered a killer package including car, hotel reservations, and an airline ticket from Syracuse. The hardest part of booking all of this is that we had to also book a ticket for Grammy.

I had to actually book them directly through US Airways because through regular travel website you can't buy a kid's ticket without the purchase of an adult ticket and all of the travel sites required you buy both of them. Orbitz wanted to charge a fee for the ticket and I said forget that!

Who would have ever known that making travel reservations would have been so easy, yet hard. I guess the hardest part was trying to arrange travel for all three of us. Plus, we really had an idea of what hotel we wanted. So, I guess we aren't the easiest travelers to accomodate.

All in all, it's important that all travelers shop around. Each time you travel one website might offer a better deal over another --- you just have to do your homework and know your stuff!



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Ate too much.

I'm sitting here with a big, full belly of food! We had a yummy Butter Chicken Curry dinner followed by Girl Scout Ice Cream. It was delicious!

Now we're just sitting around watching a repeat of the L-Word season finale with our dear friend Jen S.

Of course I'm still working on the laundry - but that's an on going task that will never go away.

Down with eHarmony!

Finally, a website where people who are creative and consider themselves artists can meet other people like themselves! I have heard from friend that eHarmony costs a fortune but has the same loser people who are pretentious and lie n their profiles!

Online dating is something I'm quite fond of since that's where I met Margot. It's nice to be able to chat with someone for a few minutes and know if you're compatiable. If you are, schedule a date and talk more. If not, put them on ignore and never cross their path again.

It's really a beautiful thing!

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What if...

Okay, it's crossed my mind more than once...what if I am pregnant this time? I didn't ovulate and we know that from the ultrasound and bloodwork. But I have been having quite a bit of discharge and after the inseminations I actually had some ovarian twitching.

Boy, I would be shocked if it worked beyond belief. In fact, I wouldn't know what to do with all of the NyQuil, Coffee, and prescription drugs that I've put into my body!

I guess my parents did it with us and we didn't turn out too bad.

Oh, right.

Hook me up, PPP!

I know I've talked about my love for PayPerPost on more than one post. Now they are running a promotion which makes my love for them grow even deeper.

Every Tuesday they will be giving away a $1,000 opportunity! It's called 1K Tuesday! It starts tomorrow at 12:01AM and goes til 11:59PM. I figure since I'm pretty glued to my computer I have a pretty good chance at making it happen!

I am constantly waiting for good opps to show up on the PPP website and since I have two blogs I have a good selection of offers that I can accept.

Most recently one of my friends emailed me to ask how I was able to stay home with the baby even though we have been used to having two very good income. I shared the information of blogging for money and they are planning on starting up within the week!

It's amazing how popular blogging has become and even my friends who are in their 60's are computer savvy enough to start a blog, hop on PPP, and start bring in the big bucks!

God knows, it's hooked up my family and not only does the extra money help with the day to day finances. But it's also helped us afford our upcoming vacation to Cancun, Mexico.

Of course, Mexico would be a little sweeter with an extra GRAND in my pocket!!

C'mon PPP, HOOK ME UP!!

Baby down.

Grammy went down pretty easy today. I was so glad because she's sick and really needs her rest right now. Of course, with that said, Mama should be taking a quick nap too.

But I'm busy blogging and also I'm waiting for our new computer to arrive.

Good thing Margot's not getting home til 6:30pm or so. That's more time that I get with our new computer!

Move over myspace.com

I've just stumbled across an awesome new website that's going to take over myspace.com!

Social networking has never been hotter and in the past it's catered to the brainless blondes who can barely spell their names. Much less actually interact in a knowledgeable and intelligent manner! That could be why MySpace.com has been so popular. It asks all of the questions and typically people fill it out using one worded sentences. Nice.

Now, there's a website for science hobbyists, techies, gadget geeks, and sci-fi fans! Sci-Edge.me.com is your one stop shop for blogs, photos, quizzes, games, forums, and just about anything else that's related to science!



You can actually build your own webpage like on myspace and invite your friends to do the same! You can add your input to forums or message boards or start your own!

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Today's agenda

This morning we woke up at 8:00am and were both feeling pretty crappy. Graem had snot coming out of her nose and a sore throat. I had the same.

We ate breakfast and then I started laundry. I decided we needed to do something fun so we started planting our seedlings. Graem liked doing the pumpkin seeds the best. The other seeds we did were way too small.

Graem hated having her hands dirty and kept crying because she had dirt on her fingers. My daughter the pansie.

After planting about 4 seeds she was pretty tired of that and ready to move on to the next adventure!

Now, we're trying to get dressed and out of here so that we can pick up meds at the pharmacy and also pick up some fruit at the grocery store.

We were going to head out to the playground too but Graem lost that fun activity because she wouldn't listen to me this morning when we were getting dressed. She absolutely ignores me when I call her name and even when I threaten to take things away it doesn't phase her.

I can't wait for the teenage years.

Where's my thinner body?

A year ago I was happy as a clam. I was working out, ambitious, and had lost a total of 75 pounds. I was on Phenteramine and Xenical. Two medications that were prescribed by my doctor. They were perfect, however the side effects weren't so good.

I've since gained about 20 pounds trying to get pregnant and am thinking about going through a much more natural way to lose the weight. I'm going to get a gym membership but I've also thought about taking supplements.

I'd be very interested in Discount Supplements because the ones at the local store cost an arm and a leg. By the time I purchased them I won't have any money for food!

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New computer in route!

We should get our new computer this afternoon and I'm pretty excited. We had planned on getting a new computer but not this soon. Graem spilled water on our last computer and it completely died.

By the time we got it fixed or bought a new hard drive it wouldn't be worth saving it.

I think the new computer that we're getting has most of the basic features that our old computer had.

We will be getting Windows Vista Premium with the new computer. I'm interested to see if it sucks.

Selling your car?

Have you ever been able to sell car? Most of the time we've always just traded ours in knowing that the dealership is taking advantage of us --- but not wanting to deal with the hassle of selling our car outright!

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CD 24

Well, I know it's safe to say that this cycle didn't work because I didn't ovulate. But I have been having quite a bit of discharge and even some ovarian cramping. Maybe my body is just simulating a cycle where I might have ovulated?

At this point, I just want to get my period so that I can go ahead and start clomid and move forward.

I'm hoping that I don't go into CD 35 before I get my period and I might decide to start up progesterone to induce it if I haven't seen it by CD 32.

Closing the deal.

Back when I was a corporate girl I constantly signed up for conferences and most of the time I was able to do it online. I always appreciated a website that wasn't broken and that had all of the information of the conference online so that I didn't have to call and ask questions.

Now there's a new event registration service that seems to do-it-all! In fact, RegOnline has provided a new program that will allow an administrator to contact someone who might have an incomplete online registration and ask if there are any questions or to simply request more information.

This in turn, makes signing up for the conference easier for the person signing up -- but also leads to "closing the deal" for the conference holder!

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Ready for the Easter Bunny!

Grammy's getting older now and this year we're going to try the whole Easter Bunny thing. We bought egg die, Easter cookies, and tons of easter candy. Last year we bought all of the stuff but she had no idea what was going on!

Hopefully, the chocolate bunny will be in one piece, and we will not have pryed into all of her Easter candy by next Sunday!

Keep in touch.

It seems like my therapist and me are always missing each other. I call her, she calls me back and we leave message after message. Now there's a new way for us to talk and connect without actually getting together!

Isellim: Connect with experts online now via Instant Messaging

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The concept of isellim is fairly straightforward, experts are able to list themselves in a directory.according to their

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From the clients's point of view isellim is an online expert advice service that enables them to contact a real person who is

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When an isellim expert is available, an "online" button appears in the directory of the isellim site or on the experts's web

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I can't eat another bite.

Today we met up with Sharon and Trudy at Thai Cuisine. We ate so damn much I feel like I'm going to pop. We had over 40 dim sum plates and our bill was close to $150. I know we ate a lot but wasn't expecting it to be that much!

Damn.

Lesbians can really pack it in!

Wine me, dine me...

You know the rest.

Margot and me love our wine! It's been a while since we've polished off a bottle by ourselves because we're always driving and because the baby's always around!

I found a great website that offers Champagne and wine online! You can actually view wine and Champagne from all regions of the world and have it shipped directly to your doorstep.

This takes the hassle out of trying to track down your favorite bottle of wine because they're all located on this website.

I also like that they offer Gift Baskets! What an awesome gift and something that I should really keep in mind for the holidays!

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Plan T

I figure since we've had so many plans over the course of trying to conceive we're probably on Plan T about now.

On cycle day 3 I'm going to start 3 clomid pills a day for 5 days. I'm going to be monitored at the local fertility center and then they'll tell me when I'm going to ovulate. I'll head down to NYC for a few days - get my sperm and then come back home.

Then we wait.

Of course, I don't know how all of this is going to work with vacation and I'm wondering if I'll find out if it worked or not as I'm lying on the beach. UGH. Not good.

Well, I guess I just need to take all of this in stride. I can't really plan for anything and if it happens --- boy, I'd love it.

But I still have Plan U-Z to go before we run out of options.

Weekend, where are you??

I am so ready to hang out with friends tonight and do absolutely nothing this weekend!!

I'm whipped. I still have a cold and I just want one morning to be able to sleep in late. It seems like lately that's been ruined by either waking up to go to the bathroom or with my cold.

Then last weekend it was the inseminations!

We could have used this...

Just last week Graem spilled a bottle of water on our 2 year old Dell Laptop. To say the least... it didn't even start up and is drying out. I doubt it will ever be the same.

Before the "accident" we were in the market for a new computer because our computer was running so slow. We blamed it on the fact that it was getting older but I think there's more to it than that!

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The most important part about this is that it's affordable and easy to use! Check out Macecraft Software's website. You can purchase the program for just $29.95 and download right to your computer.

Maybe I'll work harder to try to get that computer back up and running and then buy a program like this!

It might be just what the doctor ordered!

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*ring*ring*

I'm so outta here! Actually, I think I might just hang out here and do my blogging! It's pretty low key now that the students have left and they connection is pretty fast too.

Grammy was quite the pill today and didn't want to get dressed, didn't want to put her shoes on, didn't want to brush her teeth, and didn't want to get out of the car to go to school.

Hopefully, by the time I pick her up from daycare she'll be reformed.

Oops, I did it again.

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Hook me up with a deal!

I hate moving and I almost hate even more looking at houses!

We have visited Boston a few times and had a really good time. Not only is the food great and the people fun, but the town is really historic and has tons to do!

I bet it would be a great place to live! If you are looking for South Boston real estate you’ll want to go with the real estate firm that knows real estate in the area. Seaport Reality Group has a great website that offers information on buying and selling houses in the Boston area.

They also have a website that offers information on open houses, listings, rentals, and a broad overview of the South Boston community. I like the fact that you can look at their agent profiles and choose which one is best for you!

Perfect.

I have found the perfect place to get Christmas, birthday, holiday, and Mother's Day gifts from here on out! I love an original handmade gift. Not only does it show the person you bought it for that you wanted to do something special - but it means more.

ArtisanMarket.com offers a wonderful artist gallery full of jewelry, clothing and accessories, and items for your home.

I specifically like their handmade jewelry. It's light and colorful, yet very classy and simple. Just check out this lovely piece:



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AUGH

Graem will not stop screaming. She's so tired yet she won't go to sleep. Of course, we're out of milk and I forgot to stop by the store and pick more up.

I have a headache this big and it's screaming for VACATION.

The UK hook up!

I absolutely love the United Kingdom! It seems like they have their stuff together so much more than we do here in the states. Gay rights, health insurance, government - plus prince William is a babe.

Now of course, they have an awesome online classifeds that offers free ads! It kinda looks like our version of Craigslist but much nicer and better organized. Not only do they offer classifieds but it's a great place to local news and weather, dating, and even city guides!

We've been talking about going back to the United Kingdom when Graem gets older. ItsMyMarket.com might be the perfect place to look for a vacation rental while we're there since our friend that we stayed with last time no longer lives there!

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Pizza Slut.

I had lunch with my friend Laura today. We had a great time at Pizza Hut and were able to catch up after not talking for a few weeks. I guess we've both been busy with life.

Graem had a good time at the pizza place and spent most of her time eating old pizza off the floor.

Life insurance

We most recently tried to get Margot more life insurance figuring that since she's the main breadwinner of the family we need to make sure that if anything happens to her Graem and me are finacially covered.

Life insurance quotes from local providers came in everywhere and we soon realized that because she has asthma and is on meds for it that they see her as high risk.

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My poor car.

My 2000 Honda CRV is coming upon 125,000 miles and I just keep praying that it keeps running! I just got it tuned up and inspected and spent close to $400 but everything seems to be working fine!

I have yet to change some of the major organs of the car and so I've been pretty greatful for that! Of course, I know where I'm going to look to get a Honda Radiator!

Radiator.com offers great deals on car parts and radiators! They ship worldwide and have most parts in stock. Not to mention they have an easy to use website that you can order your parts online or contact them using an online form.

What a nice lunch.

I was suppose to sub this morning but woke up at 12:30 this morning and felt horrible. I have a sore throat and decided that I probably shouldn't teach the kids with being this sick.

I met up with my friend Kim. I met her online and we were going to swap out meds. She ended up not needing the meds I was going to give her and gave me tons of medication!

Now she's doing IUIs with another doctor's office and had some extra pills and hooked a sista up!

So I took her out to lunch in Cortland. It was a nice lunch and we talked for a good 2 1/2 hours.

I'm glad I have a friend that I can talk to about all of this infertility stuff. It's nice to have someone who's been there and done that -- that I can actually meet for lunch!

Workin' the leads.

As a marketing professional I've always done my best to keep up with potential clients, build networks, and have an organized way of providing follow through.

When I sold advertising I did this by using a binder with calendar tabs. When I did a marketing intership I used ACT! And when I was at Alterra and worked as a Marketing Director they had their own programs.

Now that I'm a business owner I have started looking at different options for sales lead management. A few years ago I went out and purchased ACT! but found it pretty disorganized and it took up so much space on my computer that it kept crashing!

I've recently come across AIMPromote it seems to have all of the features that I'm looking for including: visitor tracking and customer lead tracking. It has all of the features of the competitors but at a fraction of the cost! Plus, they are now offering a 14 day free trial period that I'm going to take advantage of.

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Always good to feed depression.

Well last night after saying that I didn't want to go out to eat - we went out! We went to this great new Ale house on Aurora Street. We had a couple of beers, some wings that were way too hot to eat and Margot had a hamburger with crabcakes and stilton, and I had a chicken caesar wrap with fries.

It was a good night and we talked quite a bit. We also ran into old time friends Trudy and Sharon and set up a lunch date for the weekend.

We came home and watched American Idol. Why in the hell is Sanjaya still in this competition?!?! He's just a horrible singing weirdo and I hope he gets to boot tonight.

I wanna be first!

When doing a search on our website we're on the 57th page of listings. Many times they results come up and paid sponsors are on top and then it sorts by page rank or alphabetically.

Which of course means ... that unless I pay someone or something ... my page is always going to be at the bottom!

Now there's a new way to have some search engine ranking! CustomerMagnetism offers service that specialize in promoting and marketing websites. They actually place your website in front of the public eye and contact companies like google and other big search engines to make sure that your website is on the top of web searches.

This is really just a small price to pay for doing business. Who better to promote your business than the true online promoting experts!

I feel violated.

I constantly feel like someone is watching my every step! In fact, a few months ago I was about to put up a myspace page and Margot reminded me that you never know who might be looking at it.

Point taken.

A few weeks our computer got infected with spyware and I can only imagine the information that they got from the computer. They know what websites we visit, what we type, and even who we email.

Years from now, I'm just waiting to hear that SpyWare is a govermental program that they use to see our every move online.

Most recently I've looked at getting Secure-Tunnel. That would actually allow me to browse websites and masking my identity and IP. I wouldn't have to worry about advertising or someone tracking my web browsing trends.

The accounts start at $2.95/month. Honestly, that's a small price to pay to protect yourself and your information from corporations and the government.

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Have I mentioned?

How much I love Grammy. Although, I constantly bitch about infertility and unable to get pregnant or keep a pregnancy I'm so thankful to have a healthy, beautiful, and smart daughter.

She makes me smile every day even when things aren't going well.

I think she almost makes it harder to go through all of this because she reminds me what joy kids bring to my life and makes me want to have another child in my life that much more.

Straight from heaven.

I'm the one who's constantly taking care of the yard. I mow, garden, water, and do snow removal.

I have found my Mother's Day Gift! It's a NO-CRANK hose reel!

The NO-CRANK hose is perfect and you never have to worry about it tangling or breaking because is follows the lead of the hose and the pressure of the water!

We've been through about 3 hose reels and every single one of them breaks or ends up tangling up the hose! The one that we currently have is missing the handle!

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So sick.

I don't know what's come over me - aside from being depressed about the whole infertility thing.

But I feel horrible. I have a sore throat, runny nose, and a nasty headache.

Well, at least I know I can drug myself up and not have to worry about having retarded kids.

Pump up the heat!

The smartest thing for us to ever invest in was our space heaters! We use them constantly and I like the fact that we don't have to turn on the gas heat and heat the whole house. Instead, we turn on the heater of the room we're in. Not only does it save money on our heating bill - but it's nice to know that we aren't wasting energy.

Desatech offers some great heaters and also accessories. I like the mantels and fireplaces! You can actually build your own fireplace on their website and it's pretty easy!

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Shit.

I can't believe my life and I'm not sure it could get much worse than this.

I got the call from the Fertility Center and I didn't ovulate. My ultrasound today revealed that I don't have a dominant follicle and more than likely I'm not going to ovulate this month.

Shit. So much for doing a natural cycle without the help of meds or reproductive assistance.

It makes me feel like this whole weekend was a waste. That my hope that this could work was a waste.

As if that wasn't bad news. On my way home I call to check the answering machine. The insurance company has called with a response to the appeal and so I call them back.

Our appeal was denied.

They said that I didn't prove medical neccessity.

I'm heartbroken and just can't get over how heartless, cruel, and corrupt these insurance companies are.

I'm tired of fighting and I feel so pissed about all of this I can't even explain it.

Not to mention --- I keep thinking back to had I not had the miscarriage I wouldn't have to deal with any of this and I'd be about 20 weeks.

Backgammon!

I'm not much for board and card games. It's probably because I constantly get beat and I'm absolutely horrible! I'll stick to video games.

I have a few friends that absolutely love backgammon! They play morning, noon, and night! BackgammonMasters offers great online backgammon with a really great community and following.

You can even take a look at the Tiger Jean Claude's famous video! Backgammon is a game of skill and wisdom - it's nice to play with a group of people that understands the same mindset!

Check out this press release:

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I miss my computer.

I feel like I'm writing about a dear friend who has died. But today without the computer was very hard!

Thank God our new computer has been ordered and it looks like it should be here before the week is over.

What would I do without a computer?!?!

Thank God Margot was able to bring home her work computer.

I beg you...

"Please don't break down." That's the prayer that I say to my car every morning as I turn on the ignition!

So far, my 2000 Honda CRV has been the perfect lady and I'm just about to hit 117,000 miles. I have never had any complaints about the car. It's not only the perfect family car but it handles great in the snow.

We also have a Toyota Matrix. The Matrix is also a great car but doesn't seem to do as well. Plus, it's quite a bit smaller.

Although, we're not quite ready to buy a new car we've been eyeing the new Toyota Sienna Minivan. We simply can't afford it. One option is to get a stripped down model which I'm not to fond of. The other option is to look on the Used Car Classifieds website and find an older loaded model.

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Bedtime?

It's 9:00pm and I am totally beat. I feel like any minute now I'm going to be able to collapse on the couch or bed.

Too bad tomorrow I have to pick up the dog, go to physical therapy, unpack, and finish up laundry.

Not to mention, tonight we have to order a new computer and I have to finish blogging.

That kid.

Tonight we got home from New York City and I opened up the laptop. There was water all over it! I figured one of the water bottles must of leaked. So I tried to turn it on - nothing. No lights, no beeps.

Margot and me operated on the computer for close to an hour and finally gave up.

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The deed is done.

Well, I have living sperm up in my vagina! We did three inseminations over the past three days and all went really well.

I assumed there would be some awkwardness -- but nothing. So, the bad news is...I'm still waiting on my damn surge and I don't think I've ovulated yet.

I'm still going to pee on sticks and we'll discuss what happens if I surge in the next few days. I might head back to NYC to get more sperm - or we might just chalk this one up to a practice run and move forward to next month.

Looking for good videos?

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Sperm.

I now remember why I'm a lesbian.

Last night we did the insemination and it was quite the experience.

We had purchased sterile cups and syringes in order to do the home insemination in New York.

Dennis did his "job" and then he came into the living room, took Grammy, and me and Margot headed into the bedroom.

It was like an Easter Egg hunt looking for the container and after a few minutes of searching we finally found it in the bathroom.

I went to put the syringe in the cup to suck up the sperm and I started gagging. Just the whole texture of it was like boogers. Then it happened --- I barfed.

Thank God the toilet was in the same area and I made it!

After I barfed I was fine, continued doing the syringe and we performed the insemination.

I sat two hours with hips in the air and was fine after that.

Of course, I have yet to get two damn lines on my O sticks. AUGH.

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Once again...CD 14

I feel like my body has really let me down.

Today I went in for u/s and b/w. We were planning on going to NYC this weekend and doing home inseminations using Margot's brother.

Well, I have yet to surge (ovulate) on those damn ovulation sticks that cost a fortune.

The ultrasound revealed that I had one dominant follicle measuring 13. Not good. My lining was also paper thin.

I just feel like what the fuck. Why can't this just happen like it does for millions and millions of other people out there.

Why can't I just have one perfect cycle, resulting in one perfect pregnancy, and one healthy baby?

Is that asking too much?

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Humble beginnings.

I have always come from pretty humble beginnings. My mother worked as a paralegal and my dad worked a 9 to 5 jobs with computer. (Imagine Dilbert with wife and kids). We lived in a 3 bedroom, 2 bath house in the suburbs.

When I was growing up I always swore that I'd make good money and strike it big.

Of course, that still hasn't happened.

We live in a 3 bedroom, 1 bathroom house. It's a great house -- just small and we've outgrown it. I stay at home with the baby and my partner works as a Landscape Architect making about as much as my father makes.

Do you see a trend here?

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Got mommy a gift!

We went to GameFly today because I wanted to check out the new games and low and behold they have the "Cooking Mama" game. It looks so cool! You make all of these different ethnic dishes using the Nintendo Wii-mote. I think Margot will love it too.

So Grammy bought it for her as an early Mother's Gift.

Letter to the insurance company...

Here's the letter that I wrote to the insurance company. Pretty damn awesome huh?

Dear Review Committee,

I am writing to appeal as part of the formal review process for denial of in vitro fertilization coverage. In September 2006 Dr. Robert Kiltz’s office (CNY Fertility) appealed the initial denial of in vitro fertilization coverage based on the medical evidence that I had Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome and at that time had undergone 3 in vitro fertilizations, 5 intrauterine inseminations (IUI), and 1 intracervical insemination (ICI).

Following the appeal made by Dr. Kiltz, I was sent a letter October 6th, 2006 from the medical review board (Dr. Rosenberg) stating “If you are infertile you will be required to do 3 FSH/DS/IUI to be eligible for in vitro fertilization.” (See attached review letter.) Starting in November 2006 I underwent the three intrauterine inseminations required to meet the guideline set forth in the review letter by Dr. Rosenberg. (See attached cycle sheets.)

I was initially diagnosed with Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome by Dr. Jose Torrado (Cayuga Women’s Health) during my initial consult in October, 2002. I then did two IUIs with his office before transferring over to my current doctor – Dr. Kiltz.

Dr. Kiltz’s assessment concurred with Dr. Torrado’s, upon initial consult, and the diagnosis of Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome and Ovarian Dysfunction were given. (see doctor’s notes from Kiltz and Torrado)

I am currently on Glumetza 2000mg to treat the PCOS. I have been on Glucophage in the past and had intolerable side effects. The medications are supposed to help with egg quality and decrease the chance of miscarriage.

I have had the following treatments:

Treated with Cayuga Women’s Health – Dr. Torrado
11/19/02 – IUI w/Clomid, HCG
12/19/02 – IUI w/Clomid, HCG

Treated with CNY Fertility – Dr. Kiltz
1/19/03 – ICI w/Clomid and under supervision and direction
2/15/03 – IUI w/Clomid, HCG
3/12/03 – Did not ovulate this month and cycle was cancelled
4/7/03 – IUI w/Clomid, HCG, and Glucophage
5/2/03 – IUI w/Clomid, HCG and Glucophage
9/6/03 – IVF using donor embryos
12/22/03 – IVF

Treated with SIRM – Dr. Sher
8/18/06 – IVF using donor embryos

Treated with CNY Fertility – Dr. Kiltz
11/1/06 – IUI w/Gonal-F, Lupron, HCG
11/30/06 – IUI w/Gonal-F, Repronex, Lupron, HCG - resulted in miscarriage.
2/21/07 – IUI w/Gonal-F, Repronex, Lupron, Glumetza, HCG

Throughout all of the procedures and attempts of trying to get pregnant --- I have only achieved pregnancy once. That ended in a devastating miscarriage December, 28th, 2006.

The Center for Applied Reproductive Science states:

“First trimester pregnancy loss is increased in PCOS. The major cause of this is probably poor egg quality and problems that were present at the time of fertilization.”

When Dr. Kiltz appealed the decision from Blue Cross Blue Shield in September 2006, the consequent medical review letter dated October 6, 2006 clearly noted that once I completed three rounds of injectible IUI that I would be eligible for In Vitro Fertilization.

In addition, Dr. Rosenberg stated that “If the same donor’s sperm was used successfully with the donor eggs in 9/2003, it suggests that the problem is with your oocytes.” The sperm donor has proven fertility in over 15 different cases using many different women and both donor and non-donor ova.

Therefore, the only clear resolution that can be seen as to the reason for my infertility is “that the problem is with my oocytes” as noted in Dr. Rosenberg’s review.

By doing IVF that would allow the Embryologist and Reproductive Endocrinologist to choose the healthiest appearing eggs and allow for fertilization of sperm directly.

The American Society for Reproductive Medicine states:

“IVF is increasingly being used for treatment of PCOS. Perhaps the largest benefit, a desire shared by both clinician and patient, is to evaluate the capacity of the oocyte to be fertilized.”

It’s obvious that I am classified as infertile due to not only having issues with getting pregnant but also maintaining a pregnancy. I am currently being treated for PCOS and I do not ovulate nor do I start my period without assistance from medication.

The most recent injectible IUI I had over 14 mature follicles, an estrogen level of over 4,000 and risk of high-order multiples. Due to the ovarian hyperstimulation, I was advised to go to the Emergency Room for evaluation and treatment. I went through with the high-risk, FSH/DS intrauterine insemination because it was a requirement by Dr. Rosenberg in order for me to be eligible for IVF in the future

The American Society for Reproductive Medicine states that:

“An additional advantage (of IVF) is that a more aggressive approach can be taken toward ovarian stimulation. With PCOS, hyperstimulation is somewhat less of an issue because the preovulatory size follicles are aspirated and a limited number of embryos are replaced. Not only does this decrease the chance of multiple pregnancies, it reduces the risk of more pronounced cystic change.”

It’s clearly in my best interest to provide coverage for in vitro fertilization through my insurance plan. I have met all of the requirements of the prior letter sent by Dr. Rosenberg. I have also been diagnosed with Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome and Ovarian Dysfunction which are the most common causes of infertility.

I ask that the decision “to do 3 FSH/DS/IUI to be eligible for in vitro fertilization” noted in the October 6, 2006 letter be upheld and that coverage be granted in a timely matter. I am due to start Lupron March 29th and so I will need an immediate answer.

Please contact myself or Dr. Kiltz if you have any further questions.

I await your positive response so that I can achieve my dreams of becoming a mother.

Your paying customer,

So tired.

I don't know if I've ever been so exhausted. I feel like I should stay away and catch up on blogging but I can barely keep my eyes awake.

Maybe, I'll get a second wind when Grammy goes to sleep.

Or maybe, I'll fall asleep with her!

What a fabulous idea.

It seems like it doesn't matter whether you're trying to conceive, pregnant, or have a child --- your life is always full of worries! I worry about not getting pregnant. I worry that if I get pregnant again that I'll have a miscarriage. I also worry that someting bad will happen to my two year old daughter, Graem.

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I hate moving.

Good thing there are companies you can hire to do the job for you. I think that's one main reason why I'm not interested in moving!

Over the years we've accumulated over three floors of CRAP! I can't imagine transporting all of our junk to another destination!

More than likely we'd hire a cheap moving company to move for us! The money that we spend on movers really would be worth the fights and arguements that we'd get into by packing and moving!

Not to mention, many of the moving companies insure your items. So if something breaks or cracks -- the good thing is...it'll get paid for you and you can get a new one.

Hmm...

This would have helped...

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TGI ...

counseling.

Today we went to Mitch and had a pretty good counseling session. We talk about our next steps, how I obsess about all of this infertility stuff, and how Margot can be more supportive.

We came to the conclusion that I'm allowed to plan for the future and that we're going to try inseminations with D for a few months and then re-examine!

Hopefully, we won't have to reexamine and we'll get a pregnancy on the first shot.

God, I really hope it works.

Take control.

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What's going on with me??

I feel like a little flower these days. It seems like the littliest thing makes me cry these days. Then something happens and I'm happy as a clam.

I've never been "unstable" but I feel like I have PMS in a major way. Maybe I just need to hook up with some happy drugs to regulate my moods.

Got space?

This time I'm not complaining about how small our house is! Instead, I'm complaining about how small our computer hard drive is!

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I feel like shit.

So, I'm absolutely depressed. I feel like everything sucks and it's not going to get any better.

I'm tired of being let down. Whether it's the miscarriage in December or most recently the denial of benefits.

I never get any breaks.

I know I should be excited about moving forward with doing home inseminations -- but I just can't get past feeling angry and mad at the most recent happenings with the fertility center and my insurance company.

Maybe after getting away this weekend and doing the home inseminations I'll feel better and more hopeful.

The good thing is ... I just spoke with D. He's so on board for making this happened and seems to really want to do this. That makes me feel good and hopeful that if we stay the course...good things will happen.

I wish I was sitting...

in front of a nice, warm, fireplace! Right now I look at the window and we're buried in about 2 feet of snow and it's still snowing!

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Another frustrated post.

So, I'm trying to get everything together that I'm going to send for my appeal to BCBS Mass. I call CNY Fert. today to find out that Dr. K has no signed the letter not devised another letter on my behalf.

I'm so frustrated with this place I could scream. The last time I was upset with them was because they had made an error and never done an E2/FSH test on CD3. This is a basic test that all REs do as part of a work up on a patient to see what their egg reserve is.

Both Dr. and Nurse apologized for the error and that was that. A mistake.

This on the other hand is blatant poor customer service and really not caring one way or another.

I figure I'm going to make an appointment with Dr. K and he can review my concerns. I don't think that they are asking too much for a doctor to write a short letter on my behalf after treating me for 4 years and receiving over $45,000.

What do you think??

Can I get your numbers?

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Headache.

I don't know what's been going on...maybe it's the stress of all of this stupid infertility or insurance stuff but I've had the worst headache the past few days.

I literally feel like my brain is about to explode and it hurts so bad that I feel like I have to squint just to see things.

Thank God it's a weekend. I can rest, Wii, and blog.

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Those kids.

Today I subbed for the local middle school and the kids were absolutely horrible. If I were that teacher I think I'd probably be an alcoholic!

I'm not sure how teachers do it sometimes.

It's a rare that I think that teachers have it easy and that's because some of them get away with teaching two classes a day!

These kids were disrespectful and had total disregard for authority. I sat there with my handful of referrals.

Too bad I didn't know any of the kids names!

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Bastards.

So if you haven't noticed I'm still quite pissed at BCBS. I talked to them today and they are standing behind their ruling that I haven't had 12 months of being infertile and that since I had the miscarriage that it starts all over again.

Our attorney drafted up a really good letter, our doctor is writing a letter too, and we're submitting a letter - as part of the appeal process.

At this point since they aren't approving it I figure we can do a home insemination this month (next weekend in NYC). Then we will continue to do monitored injectible home inseminations. That way I create tons of follicles and then we just use Margot's brother and stick the stuff in there.

*sigh*

Margot and her dumbphone!

Margot's phone is from the dark ages. It's that silvery color and some of it is even chipping off. I make fun of her phone but it's been the better of the two phones that we own - plus hers was free.

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I hate them.

I'm talking about Blue Cross Blue Shield of Mass. SO the newest thing that's going on is that I'm not infertile because I was able to get pregnant back in December.

So, they are stating that I have to undergo 11 more IUI procedures before I am considered infertile and they give me insurance.

What a fucking slap in the face. I seriously can't believe it.

So, we've contacted an attorney and not only are we going to do an appeal, our attorney is going to send a letter on our behalf too.

The shitty part about it is the Fertility Center that I love so much is no longer going to stand by and support us and the mean old lady called today to say that they can't "waste" any more time on it.

Excuse, me bitch...but I've been with you guys for over 4 damn years and paid your salary for at least a year!!!! After $45,000 you'd think that your provider would give you some kind of support?

*sigh*

I feel better. Really.

Oh man, I'm lost again!

I am possibly the worst navigator known to man! At one point for my old job I was constantly traveling and putting close to 5,000 miles on my car a month. Each day I had a new destination. Although, they purchased map software for us to give us. That included turn by turn directions --- it didn't matter. I'd always end up at the local convienant store asking for directions.

Now there's a new option for mapping services for business. Locationmaps.com offers some great and helpful maps. They offer acrylic panels, floor plans, exterior sign boards, and pocket maps.

I like the layout of the website. It seems to be easy to follow and also easy to find what your're looking for. The website is simple but doesn't look boring or detached.

One thing that I can appreciate is that they offer a free, online, mapping tool to their users. It's so easy to find mapping software online -- but the good ones charge an arm and a leg. It's nice to know that a company that specializes in maps can offer their product as a courtesy to interested parties free of charge.

It might be helpful to put some of the contact informaton on the front page such as an email contact form, or even a phone number. When I was looking for that to see the location of the business it seemed a little hard to track down. (I found it under contact on the top tab)

I realized that there is no advertising and while I don't typically like advertising on websites I realize it's helpful in building revenue to a website. Thank you for not putting advertising on the website!!! I think it detracts from the website as a whole.

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Fucking bastards.

So, I've been on the phone all day with the Fertility Center and Blue Cross Blue Shield. It appears even after the most recent stint of 3 injectible IUIs I've been denied for IVF coverage.

I'm so damn frustrated I could spit.

The last letter I got from BCBS stated that I had to do the three injectible IUIs and then they would approve IVF.

Now, they are coming back and saying that I didn't meet their "medical necessities standards."

However, when CNY called they said that because I had the miscarriage that it starts back at 1 and that I'd have to have 11 more IF procedures.

So, I'm going to call CNY first thing tomorrow morning and get all of this straightened out. Also, Margot's going to draft a letter for Dr. K to sign.

Obviously BCBS says that I don't have an infertility diagnosis.

Jesus Christ -- after $45,000, 12 procedures, meds out the wazoo, a miscarriage -- what other diagnosis do I need to be considered infertile?!?!?!?!?!?!?

Bastards.

Lost in the dark ages.

That's how I feel living in upstate New York. When we go to New York City we are constantly in awe of how people are so tech saavy with their PDAs and cell phones that go online!

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Mama down?

I'm so exhausted and thank God I got out of school early today! The teacher only had homeroom and two other classes! So, I had to teach Intro to Business and Marketing. And I walked out the door at 11:45am.

Now, I'm just going to lay down on the couch and take a snooze.

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Too damn early.

I am so exhausted. I feel like all my posts these days are the exact same. I have to sub this morning and be there at 7:30am and I feel like a damn zombie.

Margot was snoring all last night and the whole night I felt like I was waking up to tell her to be quiet.

Too bad the kids at school don't get a nap time!

Find that special someone!

Margot's brother, Dennis, has turned into quite the mack-daddy. (That was the old school term we used when I was a kid, not sure what the equivalent is these days!)

He had two dates with one girl last week and mentioned that he might have another date with one of his co-workers in the upcoming week.

The hard thing for him of course is that he's spending way too much money on these girls! For the first two dates he dropped close to $200.

One thing that I have mentioned to him is that he should try online dating. That way he can talk to a girl online for a little while decides if he likes her and doesn't have to spend a dime. He's tried True.com but it was so expensive that he cut off the membership!

If he does like her he can then take her out and wine and dine her.

It's kind of like doing a phone interview - then if the company likes you they call you in for a face to face!

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This is something that I found on one of my boards...

Although it's somewhat religious I think you can probably read it and interpret it in your own way:

INFERTILITY

Couples experiencing infertility often receive well-meaning but extremely insensitive "advice." We can all list the most popular ones: "Just relax and you'll get pregnant," or "adopt and you'll get pregnant," of the most painful from those who think they've got the goods on God's plan, "Maybe God never meant for you to have children." The sheer audacity of making a statement like that never fails to amaze me.

These same people would never walk up to someone seeking treatment for cancer and say, "Maybe God never meant for you to live." However, because I am infertile, I'm supposed to get on with my life. It's hard to understand that people can not see infertility for what it is, a disease for which I have to seek treatment. What if Jonas Salk had said to the parents of polio victims, "Maybe God meant for thousands of our children to be cripples, live in an iron lung or die." What if he'd never tried to find a cure? Who could think for one minute that that was God's plan?

What do I think God meant when he gave me infertility?

I think he meant for my husband and I to grow closer, become stronger, love deeper. I think God meant for us to find the fortitude within ourselves to get up every time infertility knocks us down. I think God meant for our medical community to discover medicines, invent medical equipment, create procedures and protocols. I think God meant for us to find a cure for infertility.

No, God never meant for me not to have children. That's not my destiny; that's just a fork in the road I'm on. I've been placed on the road less traveled, and, like it or not, I'm a better person for it. Clearly, God meant for me to develop more compassion, deeper courage, and greater inner strength on this journey to resolution, and I haven't let him down.

Frankly, if the truth be known, I think God has singled me out for a special treatment. I think God meant for me to build a thirst for a child so strong and so deep that when that baby is finally placed in my arms, it will be the longest, coolest, most refreshing drink I've ever known.

While I would never choose infertility, I can not deny that a fertile woman could never know the joy that awaits me. Yes, one way or another, I will have a baby of my own. And the next time someone wants to offer me unsolicited advice I'll say, "Don't tell me what God meant when he handed me infertility. I already know."

CD5

Well, I'm almost finished with my period but I've been pretty crampy lately. My ovaries still feel swollen and it doesn't feel like things are back to normal.

I'm still pretty bummed that we won't be going through with the inseminations not this weekend but next --- but I guess it'll be alright.

I figure at this point I can't sweat the small stuff and if it's meant to happen it will.

I have absolutely no control of the situation. The weird thing is...I keep having dreams that I'm pregnant and that it worked.

In fact, the past few nights I've just had this weird feeling that this is going to work. Aside from Margot's snoring --- that's another reason why I've had a hard time sleeping.

I think I get carried away thinking about the "could have beens" and I yearn so badly to be pregnant and a mama again.

I still think about the baby that we lost and it's hard being around our pregnant friend because she's 20 weeks and I would have been 17. Almost 1/2 way there. I know it's just going to get harder as my due date approaches...

I've just got to hold on to hope that it's going to happen and when it does...it's going to be amazing.

Oh American Idol.

Wow...it just finished and I am at a loss for who in the world I like best. There are 4 people that I really like. Even though I'm an avid viewer and it's my favorite show I have yet to vote!

My favorite all time singer was Chris Daughtery. He just released his first album and it's suppose to be pretty good. I'd say he's a mix between Eddie Veder and Live. Reminds me of the good ole' 90's!

Do you have access control?

I know I never did!

When I worked at a corporate healthcare company it didn't matter what I did...someone would always upload a virus! Not only did people not get the whole idea of deleting mail that had various attachments from strangers - but they'd constantly open up websites that contained viruses.

One way to gain access control of your computer systems is through Symark. Not only can you see what your employees are doing while on the clock but you can monitor items so that your network remains virus-free.

This could have saved us many days of down-time had we had a simple program like Symark up and running!

Not to mention all of the frustrations and cursing that took place!

On a much cooler note.

CANCUN BABY!! I'm so damn pumped and I can't even begin to tell you how long I've been waiting for this vacation. I'm glad Margot finally agreed. I think sometimes she has an overwhelming sense of responsiblity that it gets in the way of our fun!

It takes me pushing her out of her comfort zone and into the fire. That is what gets me into way too much trouble ... but for her I think it's a nice balance.

Bummed.

Well, it looks like we won't be going to NYC in the next few weeks. I was really excited because we were going to hang out there, see Margot's family, and do some city stuff.

Also, we were going to do the inseminations with Margot's brother. Of course, I loved the idea because this is the first time that I hadn't been on tons of infertility meds and thought my body was getting a nice rest.

Anyway, we get a message from Margot's dad today that they're moving to the new house and so we can't stay with him.

Dennis has classes that weekend and I don't want to burden him to stay at his place and use his sperm.

So it looks like we'll probably just hang out in Ithaca and skip the idea all together.

Poo.

I am seriously exhausted.

I don't know if I've ever been this tired. Margot kept me up all night last night snoring. I was about to kill her!! Then I had really bad stomach cramps (non-AF related) and the scoots at around 2:00am. Finally, at 3:00am I decided to hell with sleep and woke up and started doing websearches and blogging.

If I'm awake anyway I might as well make good use of my time!

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Home sweet home.

We just got back from the first outing in two days! We had to get Graem's passport information turned in for our trip to Cancun. I picked up Margot at work and we went to the courthouse.

It was actually a lot easier than expected and $152 later we should have Grammy's expediated passport within 4 weeks!

Of course, Margot's freaking out that it might not get here in time!

That's right...I'm the boss.

When I worked at Alterra I was constantly remind employees that computer work was to be 100% official business and not to go on chat or check personal emails.

Of course, when I was not around I knew employees were doing their personal internet useage! The second I would walk in the door they would change their screen or automatically log out.

Now there's some great spy software that I wish I would have had access to! Not only with EBlaster can you see what your employees have entered keystroke for keystroke. You can also view the websites, chats, and emails that are sent out from their account.

True signs of a good boss - knowing what your employees are doing!

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It's official!

We're going to Cancun, Mexico! I'm still on the phone trying to get Grammy's ticket through US Airways. But we're leaving May 11th and coming back to Ithaca May 17th.

I can hardly wait! Sun, beaches, rest, all inclusive, and did I mention free premium alchol?

What more could a girl want!

Hopefully, I'll be knocked up and won't be able to take part in the drinking festivities!

Cancun, here we come!

Well, it looks like we've found the perfect vacation and I'm going to book our all-inclusive trip to Cancun! Of course, I've got to get a bathing suit and some new sandals for the trip.

One place that I've looked at for a great sandal selection is Active-Sandals.com. They offer reef flip flops, keens, crocs, and rainbow flip flops! Plus, they have free shipping on orders over $75!

Cancun, take me away!

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Ain't nothin' like the real thing baby...

I'm talking about gold of course!

One thing that never loses it’s value is gold! Even when our stocks are floundering you can always look to silver, gold, and precious metals to maintain their value.

Monex Deposit Company offers silver, gold, and other precious metals for delivery or they will make arrangements to have your metals stored privately and securely at a bank or depository.

I didn’t realize this but Monex Deposit Company (MDC) is an industry leader. They sell gold in two forms: coin or ingot. The world demand now exceeds the supply demand for gold - which makes it a pretty smart investment.

I'm getting old.

I feel like I'm eighty years old sometimes. Years ago at my old job I hurt my back and I've tried to everywhere including: chiropractic, physical therapy, and even acupuncture.

Maybe when we go to New York City in a few weeks I can check out New York Sports Medicine.

They have a great website and useful information on lower back injuries.

I really like the fact that their office is open from 7AM to 7PM, Monday through Friday!

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Why is that baby awake?

We've been cleaning house and doing laundry all day and at noon we eat lunch and finally at 1:00pm we get dressed!

At 2:00pm I try to put Grammy down and she won't have any of it. She plays with my hair, rubs my face, says "Mama, I love you." And for as damn cute as she is... she's not napping!

So now, she's having a little "alone time" in her crib!

While Mama tries to clean up the rest of the house. She obviously needs to rethink this whole nap thing and come to the conclusion that naps are good!

Jack Bauer's favorite store.

Most people know that one of our favorite shows is "24" with Kiefer Sutherland. He plays this agent with the Crime and Terrorism Unit of the United States Government.

Jack Bauer (Sutherland) always has the coolest gear and at times we've wondered where he gets it all! He always has the perfect devise for the wild situation he's getting himself into.

I've come to the conclusion that he must shop at OpticsPlanet.net. They have the coolest gear out there including the polarized sunglasses that Jack always sports.

They also have a great selection of other cool gadgets like radar guns, binoculars, telescopes, and flashlights!

There's no doubt that before Jack goes on scene to his ... next episode he hops online to OpticsPlanet to pick up the best gear at the best prices! They also offer free shipping on orders over $29.95.

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CD 4 and our upcoming plans.

Well, it's been decided by all parties that we're going to go ahead and try the egg + sperm = baby idea.

We're going to NYC on CD 15 (2 weekends from now) and Margot's brother is going to be our sperm donor.

We haven't quite worked out the logistics, except that we know that we'll probably get in a couple of inseminations and try to do them in the evening so I can just go to bed with hips up in the air afterwards.

I called the Fertility Center today and they still hadn't gotten approval from my insurance company. So hopefully, that will come through so it can be our backup plan if Plan A doesn't work.

Affordable artwork!

We absolutely love good art. We appreciate every type and throughout our house there isn't a wall that doesn't have some form of art on it!

That's when I came across Daily Painters Gallery - affordable contemporary art and I fell in love!

Not only is the art really good, but the prices are affordable and everything is under $100!

When I was looking at the website Graem kept insisting that this painting looks like our cat, Murphy!



The painting is an oil painting and priced at only $9.99! You can't go wrong with that!!

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Miserable.

I am such a miserable bitch right now. My period is in full force and I feel like hell. Not only am I bloated to high heaven but I feel like my insides are falling out.

It's a good thing that Margot's around this weekend to take care of Graem or else I'd have to call in sick!